the rails
As I’ve said before, I have a tendency to retreat within myself and get stuck in my head when things get to be a little too much. I become singularly focused on pulling myself out of whatever situation(s) or circumstance(s) are at the root of the problem – usually to the exclusion of all else. I feel an overwhelming need to fix things myself. It’s gotten me into trouble with people on a number of occasions in the past, because I tend to get incredibly reclusive and anti-social, and generally shut people out completely. I do so until such time that all my energy no longer needs to be focused on the task at hand.
It’s not a quality that I’m particularly proud of, but it’s the damage-control mode that my head seems to automatically take me to if things get unusually unmanageable, whether I like it or not. If I were Windows™, I guess this would be my “Safe Mode”, limiting the programs running in my universe.
All of that being said, the last couple of months have been a little less than kind - both for reasons that I’ve talked about here, as well as for others that I have not. I look back at the sporadic posts I’ve actually made here, and it all reads as whiny to me. And the fact is that while I start the process of regrouping, I am completely uninspired as far as having anything to post goes.
In other words, my heart’s just not in it right now, as I focus on other things.
So I’m going to take a little break from everything non-essential – including Blogdom. Could be a few days, could be a little longer. Just until I can settle a few things and get back on track.
Cheers!
